I just got back from a 3 day vacation in Lake Tahoe. The trip, more or less, sucked. Like, I can’t begin to describe how “SUCK” it was. The intensity of it… is too much. But anyway, the trip began at around morning… and well… to list it all off:
My first experience in the snow was killed by an accident that happened to us while we were in the car. Some stupid snow truck loosened the snow near our parking area, and it created a mini avalanche that hit our windshield and broke it.
Just found out after arriving there, that parents wont let me snowboard cause they say it costed too much. <—- this was like.. 90% of the reason why I wanted to go in the first place, if they had just told me that, I wouldn’t have gone and be a killjoy.
I got to watch Resident Evil: Afterlife in the hotel room, and also ate around 4 buffets. The food was so good, I got sick of it after, and same with everybody else. So we pretty much,. just moved around and did different buffets and restaurant.
80% of the time, I fell into a state of depression that got worse every single passing hour. I barely spoke the whole time.
Parents yelled at me for doing every single thing they told me to do on the phone line with 911. Wtf? They tell me to say it was an accident and then later on they yell at me for not saying such and such even though they didn’t even tell me. (and it was not a matter of common sense)
I missed everyone back at Milpitas, after long moments of silence during the trip, family and family friend’s outings are never fun when you have no one you feel comfortable talking to.
To top it all off, I already have frustrations back at home before everything added up like this, giving me a major headache.
All in all? This trip was not worth it. I was better off rotting at home where at least I have the leisure of spending it on AP Art/Essay and Free time on the internet. Whoa… Maybe I could’ve been productive. Oh well, whats done is done.
Every beginning ends with a new one. Sometimes, this is how I feel throughout my entire life. Friends stopping by and passing through, moments never at a standstill, and the scar of every pain and suffering I’ve endured on the countless yesterdays in order to face today and tomorrow. The funny thing is? No matter how many times these moments come at me, I’ll only be able to tolerate so much. Often I’ll say to myself, “Oh, this again. Its whatever I’m used to it” but in reality, I’m only used to a portion of everything. But in the end, this is how life is. Sometimes, things won’t always be the way you imagined it, in fact, it never always will be the way you imagined it. I guess thats what makes it suspenseful and exciting, at the same time you’re gonna find yourself wondering too much on what will be that you’ll risk losing precious time spending on what is to shape that future.
On that note———
Today went by like any other day, just playing LoL and all that, helping parents pack things for our trip to Lake Tahoe tomorrow. I heard there was a storm brewing though so maybe this trip might not be such a good idea after all? Haha who knows. Basically today was pretty much an unproductive day like mostly any other day I have and you know what? It was awesome. Buahaha…………………
When I’m in my room all alone, I listen to the melodies of the ongoing soundtracks that keeps on playing from my laptop, and deep beyond the tunes, I just think and daydream. More or less, my mind is also at peace in these kinds of moments, it makes you wonder wonder, if life was like this, maybe people wouldn’t have to be so stressed out.
Going to church with family without them knowing what I believe in. Sometimes, I just wanna move out and never have to deal with this, but other shit keeps me from doing so. Oh well.. until then I guess.
Well technically its the 24th, but I’ll just leave it at 23rd since I’m talking about the events that happened today. There wasn’t really that much that took place this morning except chilling at Jarrod’s house. Its been a dull day, having most of my friends go to Simbang Gabi made me realize that I need a fresh start with new people. I’ve been hanging out with the same group over and over again and well, I get that theres nothing wrong with that, but, sometimes, it sucks to know that they’re gonna be the only family I have, aside from my best friend. Thats why, when the time comes when it feels like I’m left aside for something they believe in, I just wanna chill with some peeps who gets me, then I realized, I already have those kinds of people… well, kinda, they don’t get me that well though. Totally selfish, but I don’t think theres anyone in this world who isn’t. Gah.. Seriously need a videogame/chill buddy I can rely on >_<”
Anyway, back to the main topic, woke up in the morning, found out the warm water wasn’t working cause my mom called the plumber to fix some problem, so I was forced to take a cold shower. Played a couple of games of LoL then headed to Jarrod’s place to bake cookies, which tasted pretty good, kinda deformed though haha. Then we just watched robot chicken and some avatar episodes and I got to finish the Forced Unleashed. The ending was alright, not at all that dramatic, but its okay. Got me kinda hyped for the sequel though haha. Anyway, I ended my night playing a couple of LoL games with my friends-on a good note too. Time to head off to bed.