Sometimes, we look back to what was, and we want to relive those days again. We’ll come to certain points in our lives where we find ourselves at a crossroad. We’re alone, afraid and bewildered. We don’t know which way to take, and we don’t want to find ourselves going down the wrong path, for the fear of failure is what we all dread most. However, the choices we make in these moments will define and shape our futures for the better or for the worst. When faced with great obscurity and the unknown, it’s our natural instinct to fall back. To go back to what was familiar, safe, to go back home. But we’re not children anymore. We can’t go back to the days where we needed a helping hand and a shoulder to cry on. Some people realize the hard way that as humans, we must learn to walk alone sometimes. We must learn that there are going to be periods in our lives where all that matters is ourselves and our own benefit, and no one else has a say in that matter. We need to find the strength within ourselves to push for something better, something that can only be found just beyond all the pain. Something beyond the quiet persistence of a dream. It’s only when were put to a test, that we discover who we truly are. And it’s only when we’re tested that we discover who we can be. And this, is the point of no return where we transition from being naive to being wise. We’re no longer children, sooner or later we have to grow up.
Dam, sad how vacations end so fast x_x. Oh well, at least it ended pretty well. Lets see…
Monday - Worked out, Ate KFC, saw dead cat, bought pet food, dead cat dissappeared, chilled at jarrods, chilled at the mar’s, Nele died in a KFC bucket, played Naruto and Brawl in their house.
Tuesday - Group video with friends, met some unexpected familiar faces like Miahn, John, Phong, and Joanne. Ate pizza and milk tea after the video, then taught Joanne some piano songs. Chilled at Christine’s house afterwards.
Wednesday - Mike and Marlon came over to fill out job applications and crap. Went to savers, then 7/11 aftewards. Parted ways, then went to library and met up with jarrod, played a little bit of mabi, then we got our ashes then ate at Foster freeze (they sell some good shit there x])
Thursday - Did nothing -_-” (mabi all day with teh peeps)
Friday - Did nothing. D< (mab all day again -_-“)
Saturday - Nothin………… (-sigh- mab….)
Sunday - Went to buy school supplies, Homework…. and mab (and maybe work on drawings and poster afterwards)
Well, at least the first half was pretty great. then it just got boring afterwards. Oh well.
Fuck You. This shitty feeling of sadness keeps coming back to me no matter how many times I stray away from it… Damit, I dont know what to do anymore…
you smile huy. You smile because no matter how much life fucks you over, you’re still alive. You’re alive with friends and family that cares about you, no matter how much they can deny it, they do love you and care huy. So smile because you have a life, a good one, a better one. And live your life, for those who can’t. Did I mention to smile? (:
“Hero: someone we admire. Someone we look up to. Someone who gives us hope. Not a myth, or an icon, or a legend- someone solid, genuine and real. An ordinary person who does extraordinary things. A hero picks us up when we are down. Believes in us before we believe in ourselves. Inspires us to expand and embrace what’s possible. Helps us realize that we can be heroes, too.”—Kobi Yamada (via littlemiss) (via tangeroonmacaroonpeachplumpear) (via lealanijoy)
was an OK day for me. Woke up around 9 and walked to the library at 10:10 (took the bus halfway through xP) to meet up with jarrod, marykay, and joyce. When i got there, I met this dude, uhh… kinda forgot his name, but he said he was a beta tester for mab, so that was cool xD. Anyways, we sat in a study room for hours, just chillin, doin our own thing. Me, i was just bored like hell, wasnt really in the mood to start a conversation, so i just went with the flow. I ended up sleeping on the floor -_-; but i saw mary kay cut joyce’s bangs though haha, she still kinda looks the same for some reason, haha. xP
Later on, the mars arrived and we just went on ahead and requested a bigger study room for the 7~8 of us. We werent allowed to play the ukalele or make loud noises inside it, since we got the crappy room which was right next to the other study room filled with computers (our room isnt soundproof apparently). right after we got the room, me and mar decided to leave jar and m.kay alone in the room, and went on ahead and looked for somethin upstairs… I forgot what we were lookin for, oh well. We went back and decided to went inside the room again (srry Jarrod xD). After we went inside the study room, all 3 of us just started drawing, since there wasnt anything better to do xD Leilani joined us afterwards. Me, Marlon and Jarrod decided to go upstairs and look up mabi crap and played draw my thing. I didnt really feel like watching anymore, so I just went on ahead and did my own thing downstairs. I sat on a chair downstairs and just read a manga, which i later on found out was written in chinese -_-. When i got tired of skimming and looking at the pictures of the pages, i put the book back and head straight upstairs again.
I found out the mars already left, so I went ahead with Jarrod and crashed over his house for a bit, and watched some shows to kill time, most of them were pretty funny, haha it made me laugh. Especially this one part in chowder, when this one dude was asking the bunny who thinks chowder is cheatin on her “on a scale of 1 to 10, how desperate are you?” lmao x] I decided to leave around 6:50, since Jarrod’s dad came home, and i didnt wanna be a bother, so i walked home.
All in all… The day was.. pretty tiring >_< and the part where I was sittin by myself on the couch readin a manga i cant even understand kinda killed some of it for me -_- Oh well. Its coo, Better days will come eventually, if not sooner then later…
Guess thats all for now.. Ima head to sleep now, so fckin tired!
Woke up this morning at around 8:40, and remembered Angel was going to pick me up to Rancho around 9, so I panicked and got my butt out the sofa where i was sleeping, and called her xD luckily, she told me she was gonna pick me up at 9:40, so I had about an hour to get ready. After I got a call from Angel, i got out, along with lito, since he slept over at my place for the night cuz he didnt get a ride xD. We parted ways once Angel’s ride arrived.
Later on, when we arrived at Eric’s house, I met John Umali, Phong, Joanne and some familiar faces I didnt expect to see, haha, so it was pretty weird. We ate pizza and drank milk tea after we did the video and then sometime later on, Joann wanted to learn Haru Haru, so I taught her about 50% of what I know. I was pretty suprised cause she learned pretty quickly xD. around halfway through the tutorial, she told me she lost the keychain I made her -_- dam uu Joan!! Haha, its coo, ill make you another one sometime this school year xD. Not long after that, me, tim, angel and christine decided to leave so we said our goodbyes, took a fail jump shot picture and went to the park near Christine’s house. I brought Peach and Banana (my 2 chickens) with me to the park so they can pet it and plus they needed the fresh air anyway haha. Went straight home afterward and took a nap since I was pretty tired, and then played Mabinogi with the peeps afterwards, it was pretty fun x]. All in all, the day ended pretty damn well. I wish days like this would last longer than they do cuz the moments in the past cant be relived.